What is a Good Girlfriend?

There is a saying " It's hard to be a person, but it's even harder to become a girlfriend/boyfriend." And to be my baby's girlfriend, i think it's the hardest of all. ( Of all means thoughest task compared to all the previous relationships i had. ) It's been 4 months together and to say there is no arguments? It is a complete lie, indeed we've gone through so much arguments and most of all it's because of us with different thinking and perceptions. But we still end up to be good and still love each other lar.

My boyfriend is always a good listener and as me, i will always automatically tell my partner what is going on around me even very small things. you know, sharing? Do you find this annoying? haha... so, when i have problems, he never fail to help, give opinions, give lectures, tell me what to do and so on. sometimes it's useful but sometimes it's just hard to absorb. Maybe i'm little slow in learning. I found out that along this 4 months, yes, there is alot changes in him, though from the very beginning he made it clear that " it is hard if you want me to change, so better don't " but after that, he put in much effort and to tell me that he did change for me.
He always remind me that there is nothing that i need to do for him. All he want is me to be happy. This is the simplest thing he wish for in a relationship yet the hardest to achieve for us both. People say relationship is not one person but it's two. Both have to put effort in making a true relationship works.

Now, i admit from the start, when we just started to hold hands, there is too much things which i mind. I mind him flirting, i mind if he doesn't have time for me, i mind if he goes out too late at night, i mind if he makes me worried, if he talks to girl, if he dance with other girls in the club, every little small things. But slowly, he made me realise that these actually doesn't matter, though i'm still not used to it at times. When i think twice, i doubt if it's me not minding or it's him changing already. Confused. But i do realise there is a slight changes in me myself. Not much but i do put in efforts. Telling myself to put head before mouth when i do things, control my temper and most of all, think how to do the way he wants it to be. Trust me it is not at all easy for me. =( I've always thought that i can make him happy too but it seems so wrong. Now tell me, what should i do. Being a fool that does not do anything in a relationship or create problems when you're actually trying to make things better. Find anythg catchy here? =)

Sometimes, i talk to myself. i thought to myself that maybe this is not the right relationship for me. But i just do not want to let go as for i know, both of us are trying hard to make our relationship works and even better to go to the next stage. God never stop creating tasks for us to prove that we are meant to be and so far these are still simple tasks, i think. >.<" He gave me a mature boyfriend as He knew that i never learn from relationships. IF we're not gonna make it then at least i can take the lesson i learnt to the next relationship and make it much better for me. =D

Anyways, there is still so much to learn and still long way ahead for us to discover. May God lead our way all long and hopefully i can be a better girlfriend for him.

Club Before Home

Managed to meet up with the crime gang the night before i left for hometown. It was a great night. It flashed me back to the old days when we were still sticking together. How i miss those days. Anyway, when we realised there's no way to turn back time, we'll just have to look forward and move on right.

One more thing! (I swear to God dear! it's really okay if there is no clubbing, i told you it's not in my head and it's true you don't have to do this for me. Feel bad you don't trust me T.T ) OkOk enough emoness.

Never forget the <3


The sistas and Ah cow, never fails to spoil pichas =.=!

Babie <3<3<3

Gurls night out xD

XOXO

Kepo dear wanted to squeeze in xD

Later we met the crazy mama! 4 months pregnant but stil clubs! can u believe that?!

she said she brought mineral cause no alcohol for her. LOL and whole night she just sat there with the lolipop in her hand. how cute!

I Lurp my shoes!! Noe which one not??

Met up with Vivian and Esther too!

Aww~~ which photographer sucks till lidat? HAHAHA! nolah kidding xD

Nah! see the skill anot? i can have an award for this already. wtf!

Poor jiejie...1st time i saw her drunk after several times of clubbing together. she is so tough but what happened to her that ngiht? :(

Waiting for Xmas to come. It will definitely be a great night. I've always love Christmas. It's so fun every year so i hope this year will be as joyful and interesting! =D

Graduation

The lazy lady is back in her long neglected half die half alive blog. haha! wanted to update bout too many posts but not much inspiration to get me into writing them. I am now just too bored, sitting alone on the living room sofa with lappy on my lap, listening to Taeyang "wedding dress" (not bad song). After tired refreshing the same Fb page, emphasis on SAME page for the past few minutes, finally decided to make some updates on my blog.

We are officially Diploma graduates on the 4th of December 2009. :D proud ey... hehehe. I know i know..some people out dere might think that Diploma is just nothing, not that u get a Bachelor or Phd or sthg, but hello??? it's a 2 and a half year effort Okay?? with the classmates who have gone through the thick and thin together... how we had stayed all night long finishing the due-tomorrow-assignments, copied each other ideas and always figured out how to avoid plagarism, how we laughed and cried together, camwhored in class even the lectures are teaching and lots more. I'm proud of myself as well as all of you, in anyway especially seeing myself wearing Regalia and being congratulated by the others. I shall never forget my Diploma life.

With my love <3

Big Guy! =D i love this pic. It looks like a small weak gal (me HAHAHA!) protected by a muscular strong healthy guy! (jie) and i love being protected...

With Jack aka best buddy aka the boss

The girls

All of us with our all time favourite lecturer.

Phebe the sexay lady! xD

With the naughtiest lecture ever! I love u!! <3<3<3

Miss Tsen the quirkiest lecturer.

Will be starting degree next year, in Finance summore. Frankly speaking i'm really nervous and i'm truely scared that i might not be able to cope with it. Though i have no exact idea what it's gonna be like, but according to seniors, it will be alot stressful and hard compared to Diploma which is so called "kacang" life. :( guess i'l just have to get through it. God bless me.