What is a Good Girlfriend?

There is a saying " It's hard to be a person, but it's even harder to become a girlfriend/boyfriend." And to be my baby's girlfriend, i think it's the hardest of all. ( Of all means thoughest task compared to all the previous relationships i had. ) It's been 4 months together and to say there is no arguments? It is a complete lie, indeed we've gone through so much arguments and most of all it's because of us with different thinking and perceptions. But we still end up to be good and still love each other lar.

My boyfriend is always a good listener and as me, i will always automatically tell my partner what is going on around me even very small things. you know, sharing? Do you find this annoying? haha... so, when i have problems, he never fail to help, give opinions, give lectures, tell me what to do and so on. sometimes it's useful but sometimes it's just hard to absorb. Maybe i'm little slow in learning. I found out that along this 4 months, yes, there is alot changes in him, though from the very beginning he made it clear that " it is hard if you want me to change, so better don't " but after that, he put in much effort and to tell me that he did change for me.
He always remind me that there is nothing that i need to do for him. All he want is me to be happy. This is the simplest thing he wish for in a relationship yet the hardest to achieve for us both. People say relationship is not one person but it's two. Both have to put effort in making a true relationship works.

Now, i admit from the start, when we just started to hold hands, there is too much things which i mind. I mind him flirting, i mind if he doesn't have time for me, i mind if he goes out too late at night, i mind if he makes me worried, if he talks to girl, if he dance with other girls in the club, every little small things. But slowly, he made me realise that these actually doesn't matter, though i'm still not used to it at times. When i think twice, i doubt if it's me not minding or it's him changing already. Confused. But i do realise there is a slight changes in me myself. Not much but i do put in efforts. Telling myself to put head before mouth when i do things, control my temper and most of all, think how to do the way he wants it to be. Trust me it is not at all easy for me. =( I've always thought that i can make him happy too but it seems so wrong. Now tell me, what should i do. Being a fool that does not do anything in a relationship or create problems when you're actually trying to make things better. Find anythg catchy here? =)

Sometimes, i talk to myself. i thought to myself that maybe this is not the right relationship for me. But i just do not want to let go as for i know, both of us are trying hard to make our relationship works and even better to go to the next stage. God never stop creating tasks for us to prove that we are meant to be and so far these are still simple tasks, i think. >.<" He gave me a mature boyfriend as He knew that i never learn from relationships. IF we're not gonna make it then at least i can take the lesson i learnt to the next relationship and make it much better for me. =D

Anyways, there is still so much to learn and still long way ahead for us to discover. May God lead our way all long and hopefully i can be a better girlfriend for him.