What is a Good Girlfriend?

There is a saying " It's hard to be a person, but it's even harder to become a girlfriend/boyfriend." And to be my baby's girlfriend, i think it's the hardest of all. ( Of all means thoughest task compared to all the previous relationships i had. ) It's been 4 months together and to say there is no arguments? It is a complete lie, indeed we've gone through so much arguments and most of all it's because of us with different thinking and perceptions. But we still end up to be good and still love each other lar.

My boyfriend is always a good listener and as me, i will always automatically tell my partner what is going on around me even very small things. you know, sharing? Do you find this annoying? haha... so, when i have problems, he never fail to help, give opinions, give lectures, tell me what to do and so on. sometimes it's useful but sometimes it's just hard to absorb. Maybe i'm little slow in learning. I found out that along this 4 months, yes, there is alot changes in him, though from the very beginning he made it clear that " it is hard if you want me to change, so better don't " but after that, he put in much effort and to tell me that he did change for me.
He always remind me that there is nothing that i need to do for him. All he want is me to be happy. This is the simplest thing he wish for in a relationship yet the hardest to achieve for us both. People say relationship is not one person but it's two. Both have to put effort in making a true relationship works.

Now, i admit from the start, when we just started to hold hands, there is too much things which i mind. I mind him flirting, i mind if he doesn't have time for me, i mind if he goes out too late at night, i mind if he makes me worried, if he talks to girl, if he dance with other girls in the club, every little small things. But slowly, he made me realise that these actually doesn't matter, though i'm still not used to it at times. When i think twice, i doubt if it's me not minding or it's him changing already. Confused. But i do realise there is a slight changes in me myself. Not much but i do put in efforts. Telling myself to put head before mouth when i do things, control my temper and most of all, think how to do the way he wants it to be. Trust me it is not at all easy for me. =( I've always thought that i can make him happy too but it seems so wrong. Now tell me, what should i do. Being a fool that does not do anything in a relationship or create problems when you're actually trying to make things better. Find anythg catchy here? =)

Sometimes, i talk to myself. i thought to myself that maybe this is not the right relationship for me. But i just do not want to let go as for i know, both of us are trying hard to make our relationship works and even better to go to the next stage. God never stop creating tasks for us to prove that we are meant to be and so far these are still simple tasks, i think. >.<" He gave me a mature boyfriend as He knew that i never learn from relationships. IF we're not gonna make it then at least i can take the lesson i learnt to the next relationship and make it much better for me. =D

Anyways, there is still so much to learn and still long way ahead for us to discover. May God lead our way all long and hopefully i can be a better girlfriend for him.

Club Before Home

Managed to meet up with the crime gang the night before i left for hometown. It was a great night. It flashed me back to the old days when we were still sticking together. How i miss those days. Anyway, when we realised there's no way to turn back time, we'll just have to look forward and move on right.

One more thing! (I swear to God dear! it's really okay if there is no clubbing, i told you it's not in my head and it's true you don't have to do this for me. Feel bad you don't trust me T.T ) OkOk enough emoness.

Never forget the <3


The sistas and Ah cow, never fails to spoil pichas =.=!

Babie <3<3<3

Gurls night out xD

XOXO

Kepo dear wanted to squeeze in xD

Later we met the crazy mama! 4 months pregnant but stil clubs! can u believe that?!

she said she brought mineral cause no alcohol for her. LOL and whole night she just sat there with the lolipop in her hand. how cute!

I Lurp my shoes!! Noe which one not??

Met up with Vivian and Esther too!

Aww~~ which photographer sucks till lidat? HAHAHA! nolah kidding xD

Nah! see the skill anot? i can have an award for this already. wtf!

Poor jiejie...1st time i saw her drunk after several times of clubbing together. she is so tough but what happened to her that ngiht? :(

Waiting for Xmas to come. It will definitely be a great night. I've always love Christmas. It's so fun every year so i hope this year will be as joyful and interesting! =D

Graduation

The lazy lady is back in her long neglected half die half alive blog. haha! wanted to update bout too many posts but not much inspiration to get me into writing them. I am now just too bored, sitting alone on the living room sofa with lappy on my lap, listening to Taeyang "wedding dress" (not bad song). After tired refreshing the same Fb page, emphasis on SAME page for the past few minutes, finally decided to make some updates on my blog.

We are officially Diploma graduates on the 4th of December 2009. :D proud ey... hehehe. I know i know..some people out dere might think that Diploma is just nothing, not that u get a Bachelor or Phd or sthg, but hello??? it's a 2 and a half year effort Okay?? with the classmates who have gone through the thick and thin together... how we had stayed all night long finishing the due-tomorrow-assignments, copied each other ideas and always figured out how to avoid plagarism, how we laughed and cried together, camwhored in class even the lectures are teaching and lots more. I'm proud of myself as well as all of you, in anyway especially seeing myself wearing Regalia and being congratulated by the others. I shall never forget my Diploma life.

With my love <3

Big Guy! =D i love this pic. It looks like a small weak gal (me HAHAHA!) protected by a muscular strong healthy guy! (jie) and i love being protected...

With Jack aka best buddy aka the boss

The girls

All of us with our all time favourite lecturer.

Phebe the sexay lady! xD

With the naughtiest lecture ever! I love u!! <3<3<3

Miss Tsen the quirkiest lecturer.

Will be starting degree next year, in Finance summore. Frankly speaking i'm really nervous and i'm truely scared that i might not be able to cope with it. Though i have no exact idea what it's gonna be like, but according to seniors, it will be alot stressful and hard compared to Diploma which is so called "kacang" life. :( guess i'l just have to get through it. God bless me.

Happy Birthday Grandpa!!

No wonder dad followed us back last week. haha! Jess and I didn't know it was grandpa's birthday until we reached there at night. And it was only after mum and grandma talked about it. haha! We had family gathering at Sheraton, one of the newest restaurant in Sibu. Place was quite big but the food was so so...not that nice i think...

The adults. why is uncle not in? Hmmm...

There you are! haha! All of us...


Dady lighting up the candles. 68 years old already! Time flies... x.x

Cake cutting. Aww~~ so smart! hehe...


My favourite! But too bad not fab... :( and they didn't clean the prawns' shit!!!

The cauliflowers are nice tho... haha!

Just like the pineapple shape. Food not nice! yucks!

What's wrong witth this retard? Totally no idea.. x.x

Currently obssesed with this cubicle cube!

i can make one face already! yipee! xD

The three siblings...

Sweetie Pie :D

Father and son

Daughter and 2nd mummy xD

See, i told ya....we bring it everywhere! haha!

Granpa grows older each time we're back to visit him.. :( yet he still wants to cont his business at the stall. sigh! why can't he just let go and let us take care of him so that he can just relax and enjoy his old days? Dear God please bless these grandparents of mine. May they stay healthy as they walk through the hard days. Grant them happiness as they overcome circumstances in their daily lives. Amen.

Will be busy at the beginning of December. Graduation ceremony, 3 wedding dinners to attend...argh!! FAT!!! :( Gonna start hunting for dresses. Money Money i need you... Again please drop from the sky.... =.=!

You and I

Love is what brought us together,

Love is what makes us fall into each other,

Love makes us go through the ups and downs together,

Love is what makes us stay together!

In love we will cherish each other,

We will appreciate each other,

We will learn from each other,

We will forgive each other,

Hold on till time doesn't allow us to, till it tears up apart.

Happy 3rd monthsary baby!

Lots of Love

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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Nothing much to say

Home feels good..sweet, cosy.. :D

Miss Miri so much

Though it's only my 2nd day home =.=

Miss dearie, miss zabo... :(

Went jogging just now and it feels good, makes me feel slim haha!

Had a deal with B

We're gonna jog every Mon,Wed and Fri

Hope we can stick to this. Seriously need to lose some weight! >.<

Have a sudden crave for Summer Tea's Bubble Tea

Tell me how can i lose weight! Duh...

Wants to go town but no companion. LAZY on the second thought.

Decided to wait for baby at home. :D

Hmmm...i blog as if i'm plurking wtf!

Long mixed post....

This will be the last night in Miri before i come back again next year perhaps? aww~~ Miri is such a nice place to live in compared to my hometown and all the delicacies... :( i shall never forget...

Well since it's my last week so i was being a litle demanding than usual, :P asking dear to stay longer to keep me company. Hey actually he was the one suggested all the plans and at the end it never happened Ok? =.=! Anyway, thank goodness he managed to finish his work on Saturday which was supposed to be continued on Sunday, which also means, Sunday no work!! wheeee.. :D and he also said that he will stay with me till 7pm before he left for Brunei. Heeelllooo??? i remembered he said Monday off for me lor..but nevermind la he is always a busy guy...(and at last he did not make it till 7pm as promised as he had to send his father back..) see? i told ya..BUSY!!! :(

Nyway, Saturday night we prefered to enjoy our own world in room watching drama. Plus, it was quite late already after he finished his friend's wedding dinner. I ended up eating maggi after waiting till like almost 10pm.wtf! if not having KFC liao...=.=

The next day, we woke up and i saw zabo's msg. i was shocked a little to only get to know it was actually lasnight's msg...huehue..sorry dear... so i asked back if she wana go for lunch and movie. we were kinda rush as the movie was at 11.45am and by the time we headed to her house it was around 11.30am already. why lah pick that time?? aduh....we had no choice but to have "branch" after the movie which ended like 2-3hours later? we were actually starving in the cinema and the cinema si beh crowded like hell!

This movie i was awaiting was not bad to watch as it shows how short life can be. We would never know what will happen the next second ahead. Threfore cherish every moments we have, forgive and love back the ones who love you.

After this interesting movie, we went hunting for food. Why lah is McD always full?? i did not get my McD at last after craving for so long... :( we had KFC instead. After that, though full, our stomaches are always eveready for ICE-CREAM! hehehe....who can resist such yummy ice-cream??? and this is also the reason why i grow so fat wtf! Let me just share some pictures.. :)

This...look at the colour....awww...alright i noe it doesnt look promising but trust me! you will definitely crave for second time!! Black Grape with chocolate chips if you wana know.

Mine, shared with zabo is also black grape, but with kiwi toppings. Fabulous!!*Double thumbs up!!!*

Dear's soursop flavour with strawberries topping which is also his favourite!

Slowly enjoying every mouthful of my ice cream... :D

=.=! excuse my look here but i just like my hair! haha! good hair day.. :D

There....full and contented.. :)

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Dear sent me home around five and i was not quite happy that time as i knew he sent me home that early cause he wana eat durians at home!! Don't try to deny! hmmf! i KNOW!!! :P so i was kinda down and i did not look for him till night time. As well did not know what time he went back Brunei. Normally he wil arive at 8 and online but las night i did not see him on9. Since i had my mind set that ''Why should i be the one who msg him 1st?"so i decided to wait. Till 9pm i was starting to worry as he did not msg me and it was raining outside too. Ok lo i msg-ed him but no reply!! Why the hell always no reply when it comes to emergency?? Till like almost 10pm only he called me he said he's almost home. i acted i was pissed cos i was really fucking worried lor if u don't know! =.= he even lied that his Brunei line no more credit - which he actually arrived outside my house already. i was totally speechless i tell you. Half angry half happy...hahahahaha. He sent his dad back to Brunei and speed back here again. Silly sia, no? Always like to play surprises lor. Fun isit? =.= but i like wtf! LOL!! But i know he is doing for this time only haha cos i'm going back tomorrow wad! so long cannot meet ler. hehe..i'm still touched no matter wad. Thanks for everything babe! :)

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Woke up early this morning, cant wait to get my hair dyed. waited for alan and the others to wake up and finally the time comes! :D Some pictures to share.

Trying to hide my fat chin. @__@

Princess with servants or white mouse with scientists? you tell me..

Waiting for the colour to somehow make friends with my hair..

Posing with almost flat butt wtf!

Now i have hair with no black roots! yiippeeee~~:D

After a long day, im tired now. Will be going home morow morning and i gues i shall have a good night sleep. Tata~

Late Post* Vinz farewell

Vinz has been away for more than one week and to tell the truth i do miss him abit haha. He brought us so much fun and laughter when he was here. Hope he's doing well there and Good luck along your way dude. Definitely looking forward to meeting you in January! (reminds me of our plan...hiak hiak :P )

Actually don't really feel like blogging this post as the pictures flash me back on my idiotness and the stupid mess. well, since i'm bored to the maxxxx and Ah Pern wana see updates as well as Dear said it's not that bad to think back the sad things as long as u find happy things to cover the sad one, i'm pretty happy now so why not? xD

Actually that night, we tend to have a farewell party for vinz, we had dinner at his house. Jess and fish, not to forget Brian, came too but frankly speaking it's not as fun compared to last few times anymore...i duno...things change i suppose? Anyway, zabo was supposed to join us but she had other plans which i think it's hard to explain here. haha! *You know what i mean. :P

Pictures taken at the CREEPY hotel ( i mean it! it really gave me the creeps! :S )where B stayed, while waiting for Ah Gu to fetch us to Vinz house...

After that, we headed to One Night karaoke. we were supposed to go sumwhere else but it was full. * so long since we go shake shake...Balcony had its place renovated and it's fucking cool and awesome!!! i wana go with u, zabo!! wow wow! sexxxyy beetchh! LMAO wtf! * Excuse my sot-ness!

Ok back to-where-was-i? so we arived One Night, ordered a little drink, sang few songs, and received call from Fern that we could go fetch her. so i went with B since that lousy weak dear just recovered from his sick and didn't drive. before that, we went to meet up Sharen dear at Alfresco..awww~~ i miss her like wad! everytime pass by her shop but never see her!!! she is still that pretty and sexy!!!! too bad she was tired or else she would be joining us.. :( Before we left for Fern, stil get the chance to snap some shots.. :D

When i was at Alfresco, Fish and Jess kept complained that i left them there...where got alone wor...Fish got Jess, Jess got Fish ma...most importantly got Itik Pui ma...right right?? i oso wished i could bring u guys out bah...but i think Fish know why la ho...x.x

Alright, back to the spot, we started singing again. actually not much singing but listening already. haha! no mood liao bah. yish! And worst of worse, the police came and ruined everything! Gosh, it was just not the right timing. we were a litle tipsy as we drank quite alot before that and Fish, Jess and I forgot our IC in th car. cant blame right? who will expect "mata" in Karaok wor...=.=! Luckily we were safe. Ello, of course la! we don't look like china gal nor Indonesians wad! hahahaha! wtf! It took like 1-2 hours for them to check every room and had urine test. we couldn't do anything but wait. so, anything better than camwhoring? LOL!

Look at those drunk faces! tsk tsk...

Tired of waiting or pretend drunk? LOL


I love this so much! xoxo

Spot Ah Cow at the back?? haha! and jiejie bringing sexy back!! wow!




I like this too! we are good posers! LOL!


For your info, that is Gu aka Ah Cow's hand. he said he wana makes the picture looks more perfect.. =.=! Kepo or wad? haha!


This was taken before we went to One Night. not yet drink already red. wah lao!

Duno wad's wrong with this lil retard! hahaha!

Spot anything 18xx in this pic? LMAO! sayurs in the house! Why?? Look at picture below

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Because too lin c! drink pure all the way! hahahha :P

The twins.. :D

we can have the best camwhores awards already! haha...xD


And the best smile award! hahahah! so cute eyy???

Another dead fish! haha!

And lastly, i singing 爱上你等于爱上寂寞. owh, how i love that song! *sad tears*