Lost....

i feel like pressing my keyboard non stop as to release all my frustration inside of me right nao...ok i don't have the courage to! it's not something nice to share anyway. i feel so miserable so frus so sad so angry! everything bad that you can think of now. if i have plane right nao i'll definitely fly to Bali...or Rome...or Paris! Venice!! no...-.- i won't be able to do that alone wtf! yes i'm such useless. if i am a billionaire right nao i will shop till....err...till my heart tells me to stop. (since i won't be broke cos i'm a billionaire wtf!) if i really am a billionaire will i still be upset bout all these shits? -.- i'm full of imaginations. i mean who doesn't want to be like Salt? right? but i just don't have the potential to! i'm a 21 years old young lady yet i am a like a 3 years old kid to some others and i'm even starting to feel myself like one. grrr i'm mad at myself! this month has been a fucked up month...late payment, got to drop one unit and take it back during summer.means no holidays!! both loans not approved fml! relationship sucks max what's more to come? sigh...i did pray to God mayb i was lazy to do it every night that's why He refused to listen to me... :(

i don't know what to type anymore wtf!

i am not happy that's it!

埋怨vs感恩

心情不好。。。感觉两个人都在逞强又装坚强结果就搞到两个人都不开心，心里放着一块石头两人都不愿意先开口解开。。。刚刚在想其实我们这样是为了什么啊。。那块石头弄得我透不过气，这样值得吗。。。

刚刚参加了小住，领悟到了神的话语，分享了自己的经历，感觉好舒服，透过上帝的话语让我发现这么久以来自己一直都在小小事务上埋怨，就好比刚刚，埋怨dear为什么明明就一个星期只能见一次但就偏偏要工作。。。但现在我想感恩至少他星期六选者下来陪我还说星期日陪了我吃早餐才上去。。。

埋怨他为什么要一直生气还要假装没事把关系弄得很疆。。。但从另个角度想，他也是在关心我，要我学习成长。发现自己也是一样，自己该踏出第一步来打开心结。。。所以要感恩我们还是在努力的坚持着。。。 =)

埋怨他只顾着打game少了时间陪我。。但，想想这是他的爱好啊。。我不喜欢被住址做自己喜欢做的事，所以我也没权利住址他。。。还是感谢他会抽时间来跟我说话。。。（但要和game谈恋爱似乎有点过分耶。。。-.- 不要我啦？？）

唉。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。不写了。。。我想感恩这个课题还需要些时间来领悟。。。

Home instead of Kuching

For the past few weeks i was telling dear that i wanted to visit jess in Kuching as i really miss her TOO much!! :( apart from that i wanted a meet up and spend some quality time together. But after several considerations, we decided to cancel the trip and that was when dear suggested to come Bintulu since he had taken his leave. After we have planned everything mum suddenly popped up with a decision that we have to go back Sibu on the particular week which dear's coming! -.- so again poor him had to take extra leave to follow us back to hometown. I am glad everything went fine though that silly guy lost his way several times in Bintulu. haha :P

Those who know Bintulu won't deny that it's a very boring place i believe. so u can imagine what we do here for 4 days 3 nights. ><

Most of the pictures taken are camwhoring pictures and some of them are really silly. HAHAHA! i'll show you later. Didn't took any pics in the 1st gorgeous hotel (H5 Hotel) :(

Ok let me talk bout this. when dear first arrive here we immediately went to hunt for an inn cos he didn't wanna spend too much on the accomodation but FOL all the inns including one of the new hotel are fully booked!! so no choice we have to pick the cheapest plus reasonable one. Lucky we took H5. The design of the inn is awsome!!! i love it. simple and trendy with black and white as theme. We ordered room service and the food was mad delicious!!! (forgot to take pictures again!! ) i want to go back for more food! huehue....At night we went to visit UK Funfair (cos no place to go seriously!!) Throw RM20 on the games but not the exciting one cos we were to full to get on them. Not much on the 1st day except stuffing ourselves with food -.- and no pictures taken.

The next morning we went for breakfast. This guy! at first he ordered kueh chap but then he changed mind to laksa and then he saw longlife noodle with chicken soup (鸡汤面线) on the menu so i decided that i should order that one so that he can have a try. And then the worse came. He saw people eating chao kuehtiaw and he demanded for it too! hahahahahaha he said it looked nice so we ordered one. i was actually thinking of a light breakfast that morning but we ended up stuffing ourselves again! aduh...of course it's not me...he's the one finishing them... ><

After that we went back to prepare for a check out ( because we only booked for a night and the receptionist said it's taken already when we wanted for the 2nd night FOL again) After checking in at another inn (of course not that good compared to H5 but boleh tahan la got WIFI wad -.-) we went to eat again...

you'll never guess what he wanted for lunch. DURIANS!! FML! those who noe him would definitely know how crazy he is for durians. i can't stop him so i lose...so we ate durians with mumy cos he said they were bought for mumy (she likes durians too) and i know it is an excuse!!! dia sendiri mau makan. hahahaha after durians we had tong soi （塘水）and watermelons...i told you..non stop eating. we were supposed to go beach to have chicken wings at dinner time but i cancelled. My chicken wing~~~~ :(

At night we had a small gathering with my ex-classmates at Tom's Place. who said the food there are nice??? i swear i'll never go back there again. i miss Hot Spot :(

The next day....alright it's about food hunting again actually my post is getting boring! no pictures one wtf!

ok la we made a stop at The Chef for hi tea. we had to wait for 5pm before heading Sibu and we checked out from the inn earlier so that explained why we had no place to go -.-

Again he finished most of them. hahah he is a pig!! :P BTW they were really yummy even i was full that time. this is not long after our meal okay...

Aiyerr...act cute tim..hahaha muacks! xD

2nd high tea cos again nowhere to go but still die die wanna stick together. The green tea with red bean was SUPERB!!!!

Hey that's mine!!

Yum yumm :)

i tell you all this guy can really die without internet. And he access the same website all the time even more than facebook! no wifi also he die die wanna on9 using his digi line -.- beh tahan...

Vain pic hehehe

After like driving almost the whole town of Bintulu finally it was time for long journey. so more pictures in the car. =)

He's on9-ing again!!!!! dulan...

I love this one!! so cute!! =))))

i guess he didn't wanna be the light bulb... :P

zou me ban ku wor....hou guai sei lam geh jek...hahaha

See!! again!!!

Finally pig got tired and fall asleep... :)

This post takes me so damn long to finish im lazy to type ordy. skip to 2nd day and more pictures in the car. -.-

Ready to go out after finishing his drama 神话

Hey dude, no reading allowed in the car. i do teach him LOL

HAHAHAHAHA why lah he looked at me like that so damn cute one..hahahahha

Oooppsss not ready yet...

There you go... :)

eat more durians and i'll punch you in the face! HAHAAHAHA

awww sleepy head...

Better one with one half eye wtf -.-

hi~ we're back in Bintulu! =) aiya lazy wanna type wad happen back in Sibu you all won't be interested also lah right right? I knew it!! *narrow eyes*

Masih on9 bermati matian...

HAHAHAHAHAHA confirm no more image.. YOU ARE MINE!!

super suka this one... :)))

Before i finish i have to tell you all that this BIG pao is damn f**king yummehhh! Not only that it's HUGE. it's my palm size no kidding walao my saliva is dripping nao T.T

arghhh more saliva nao!! i have to go eat this pao tomorrow juga!!

Ok finally this post can be ended with a very vain pic of mine.. :) tata~

3rd Blood Test

This morning went to another blood test. yea yea i know..third time already. Don't ask me... i don't know the result yet.. :P mumy said it's for whole body checking this time. ok lo since everyone is so worried, especially my silly dear dear -.- , and to give myself a guarantee, i don't mind to lose some blood geh.. x.x Hope i can really get an accurate result this time. Painful de lehh!!!

We went to Gribbles. It's a specialised pathology lab so i guess this time should have a detailed explaination from the doctor. not like miri polyclinic. wtf -.- So i started fasting lasnight till the morning and i swear i almost died of thirst! luckily i was the 1st one to take urine and blood (no urine came out summore cos didn't take any water for hours! wtf! ) though there's alot "lakia" lining up outside waiting for thier turns. They must have felt very annoyed in heart. haha!

While waiting for mumy's turn. poor her. The nurse couldn't find her veins keep cucuk cucuk..ewww!! she said it was painful..Yi er~~ imagine sia..hahaha

Removing the plaster was so fucking painful!!!

But still can present you with my pretty smile! wtf!

It was still okay in the afternoon. The bruise was not so clear... Thank God..

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-.- It started to show nao at night!!!

And i can't even put my arm straight nao because it hurts alot T.T

But still thankful as it's not as bad as when i took that 1st bloody time at polyclinic!! fuck that nurse! (it's a guy and i don't think he is a nurse just some sort of assistant! -.-)

one week till result. And also one more week till i meet dear dear!! Wheeeee!!!♥♥♥

update 11/7 :FTS! It's supposed to recover day by day how come mine just got worse!! ugly max!!! FML~

Finally short!

Finally put up my courage to cut my hair!!!! woots woots! and i'm so damn daring!! 1st try cut so freaking short!! back side even shorter..><

see see..nice anot??!! MUST SAY NICE AH I TELL YOU!! hehe...

looks nicer bcos it's after cut. got blow ma...if no blow...like shit la.. :(

i have to blow my hair already unlike long hair...

summore blow already still dont stay in place!! -.-

beh bai la hoh...can accept la hoh???!! ><

Random

Arhhh how come so bored one...in Miri bored come back home bored... siao liao! wanna watch pps daddy play on9 game. wanna go shopping no money wanna go lim teh no kaki...wanna watch tv no nice channel. wth.....-.- can't wait for tonight mummy said she's gonna buy me a swimming suit and we're going swimming!!! yes you got me right swimming! woots woots! (dunno how to swim play water also can one ok wtf!)

starting to get used to typing with my acrylic nails. Till nao they are still pretty though not that shiny anymore.

ok la i know it's not clear here.. :( but very pretty oneeeee. It took more than 2 hours to finish this can! Sit until my butt also open flower wtf! so even not shiny anymore also die die love them. Thank you san ♥

Went pizza hut with mum and Brandon yesterday. Had been eating pizza for the 2nd time in a week. Shit!! i hope the report will be okay!

New contact lens from rainbow. pretty but still prefer freshkon. click to enlarge for clearer view.

ok continue bombaring with my camwhore pics. EMPHASIS on the NAILS~~~ ehehe :P

This one specially for my laogong one. (other people please close your eyes wtf!) Pui Sze Sze, long time no muacks muacks liao... lai ayang ayang~ MUACKS~~ =D

ok can open eyes already. hahaha!

Last one for all of you la say what.. =)

Long live fake lashes!!

快乐心情

终于考完试了！感谢主 =)

今天二十二号，就是我们在一起十个月纪念啦。 也是我考完试的一天。心情也就特别愉快。。。带着轻松的心情坐在电脑前边写下心情边听着歌还真享受。。。两个星期的折磨终于过了。。。很快就要搬家了。。。很快就可以回老家看爸妈 了。。说真还蛮想念他们的。。。前天妈还打来说快点回家可别把老娘忘了。。。哈哈！妈说回家要去验血。。。>< 这里报告都还没拿药还没吃的。。。><"

回家之前还得把屋子高定！这些琐碎的是真的让我伤脑精。。。希望可以快点找到不错的房子不错的housemate。。。啊啊啊啊啊！！！好懒惰收拾，如果可以把整个房间包起来放在行李里然后到了新屋再把它完整的般出来那该多好。。。哈哈！懒人一个。。。

心情愉快的时候就特别爱花钱。。。好想买新鞋啊！！！给家人知道我又买鞋的话。。。哈哈！不敢想象。。。电话还没买的。。。 :( 在 haiyo网定了衣服。。。x.x 网站购物真是害死人。。。不过没关系，很久没买衣了。穿来穿去就那几件就算我穿不腻衣服看我也看腻了吧？！ 哈哈！

觉得自己好多废话。。。心情亮就是这样啊。。 ^^ 今晚可以飞了！！看戏看戏！！ 花钱花钱！！ -.-

Happy 10th monthsary baby! muacks~