Dear Nemo

Dear Nemo in Heaven,

Hey girl how ya doing up there? I'm sure it's better than here...It's all so sudden since you left just nao ya know? cos this morning i was still feeding you with egg and medicine which you refused to take? it's been so rough for you isn't it? You had those worms killing your heart which made you weaker and weaker each day..i know...

But it's alright nao. I'm sure He will be taking good care of you. Nice food, nice space and hey, please find the right place to pee and poo ok cos trust me it's annoying to clean them everyday. but you were good, at least you only do your business in the kitchen :)

Nemo i miss you so much. I know we hadn't get along much before. But this time when i got back and i saw how weak you were and how you just wanted some care...i started to get along with you. it made me wanted to look at you every minute to check if you're doing ok...it's been just few days and i already felt and still feeling so heavy-hearted.

Until this morning when i push myself up from the bed, thinking that you haven't had your medicine and i was glad to see that you seemed better than before. i was thinking you would be fine cos the vet said if the you're still weak for 3 days you're gonna die.

Today you seemed so different. i was lying on the sofa watching movie and you climbed up to me which you never did. i was surprised yet delighted having the hope that you're really recovering well. However you refused to eat and you're still having this "hard to breath" condition. You started to talk and you climbed up the stairs and stayed for a while which kept me wondered.

Maybe you figured what's gonna happen. And that's why you wanted to spend the last good times with me. And that's why you climbed up to me. You wanted extra pat. i remembered you kept looking at me when you were on my lap...and it made me miss you so so so much right nao..you could never imagine the feeling when i saw you laid still under the dining chair and to carry you into the box.

I wish you can take good care of yourself girl. Make new friends and move on because you'll always stay in my heart. I know this will take a while for me, but you gave me the heart to have a another puppy in the future so that i have the chance to take very good care of it not letting it to leave me again like you did.

Please know that we love you..at least i really do.. Goodbye Nemo.. ♥♥